you're the only reason for my smile.

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2012-01-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

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6th October '11

2011-10-07T01:22:00.000+08:00

Haiiii everyone.

It's been an awful week for me. Definitely not a way to spend my 2nd week of holiday. sigh...

On Saturday, when I woke up in the morning with my right hand under the pillow, I moved a lil and I feel bruising pain on my middle finger. Yes, middle finger. I removed my hand off away from the pillow, to my HORROR, I self diagnosed it as 'Cuticle infection'.

This is on Monday.

It looked pretty swollen. Sorry that the photo isn't 100% clear as my BB camera isn't DSLR quality. Well anyway, the infection hurt quite badly. :( The whole of my middle finger was warm and tender. FUCKMYLIFEYO. However, happygalgalme is glad to say that my finger is recoveringggggg!!

Today

This is how it looks like after I poke, squeeze & drain the pus out of the small yet dreadful swell. Least now it is not as painful as the beginning. =D

2condly, I had food poisoning on Tuesday. It was a torture I swear. I had a dream that I was suffering from bad abdominal cramps. But who knows, the dream interprets for me what's gonna happen next. LIKE TRUE ENOUGH, I couldn't get to sleep from 0400hrs - 1000hrs thanks to the cramps. I woke up and slept for an hour during those timings. WORST than the dream that I had. I had fever later in the noon but subsided around 10PM when baby rang me up.

3rdly and also lastly, I had a lil bump on my left eye. But it got better already.

SIGH...

Well, enough of my suay-ness, today I had a fulfilling day with Shihui. Met her at around 1130 at JE then we head to Chinatown for lunch and some 'auntie' shopping. The place that we had lunch was the place that our parents always brought us there when we were young. Most awesome porridge ever I can say. (pictures of it will be up soon! I promise!!)

After lunch we went to CK then to a shop to buy all the essential stuffs for ladies. She got a lot of stuffs, like, A LOT. And I only got a...

1. Evian facial spray
2. Adidas perfumed deodorant spray
3. Beauteen hairdye
4. Maybelline Baby Lips
5. Eclipse hair capsule
6. Garnier self-heating purifying mask

Total cost: 20.45$ only!!

Then accompany her to Raffles City to get her Birks. Then we went to IMM's Daiso to get our needs. Whilst I get the stuffs I needed for to pack my room. And we're doneeeee. =D Enjoy the short day with her muchy! ♥

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Hey baby, I'm missing you and so far I've been coping well while you're not around. Soon, one week will be gone and we'll be able to see each other again. Everyday I'll pray for your safety. Every night we're seeing the same sky and moon, having the same dreams. I can sense that you're missing me as well. But hold on, it'll be over soon baby. I'm perfectly fine and healthy now so you will have no worries. Just that the past 2 days sucks badly for me. I miss you and hope the time will pass faster!

xoxo

Away away from me

2011-10-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

Photo taken during my trip to Guang Zhou this March.

I'm reviving this page here becos' I want boyfy to read my daily entries via here when he's back from Taiwan.

For the first time in our 2 years plus of r/s, he's away from me for so long and so far away. I thought I'll feel kinda sad and cry like a baby at home. HOWEVER, after sending him off during yesterday's morning, I went to ECP and skate/cycle with Shihui, Kenneth and Jin. I had an awesome day with them that takes away my 'fan dao'.

Well, no promise that I will be blogging most of the time from now on. Heh
I'm super duper sorry that I didn't reply some of you guys. Be it fb/whatsapp/texts/calls/twitter. I just don't feel like reply.

I used to find a lot of excuses for myself to run away from any situation. But now, I've decided to not to find any and just face it without any excuses.

HAHA. Goodnight Earthlings!

2nd week of holidays

2011-03-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

I spend my 2nd week of holidays watching CSI:NY. Awesome show. ;) (Y)(Y)(Y)

Tuesday I spend my evening at the hospital with great grandmother.
Wednesday I'm stuck at home, I think.
Thursday head to cine with MelC, MelB and Pam.
Friday went to eat Sakae with bibi.
Saturday went to IMM & JP with bibi then stay over @ his place.
Sunday we went to Kovan for his friend's 21st bday and then cut our hair then back to my place for dinner. After he left my place, I went to HKE to meet up with Jen♥ & Huiqi♥

That's all! =/

Resuscitation

2011-03-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

While waiting for the people to set up our sky dining cabin.

Appetizer: Smoke salmon with vegs broth (Y)

RWS

Want some champagne?

yuuuuummmsss!

CANDID. Damn you baby. :/

I swear this is candid shot! NOT deliberate pose!

Candid number II

Main course: Sautee dory fish with some nice sauce but not chilli sauce.

Main course for baby: Beef.

White wine

White with baby. ;)

Midst of sunset.

Greetingszxc! ;D

HAHA CANDID! :P

Luv is in the air!~ ♥!

Happy me!


Dessert: Raspberry cheesecake. BEST (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

This guy is the man of my life, REALLY. ♥!

Candid. Fucking ugly = fugly. -_-

RWS

These are the cabins in front of us but I didn't manage to get a good shot of it. D:

Luv


9 stalks of roses means eternal luv. ♥!

HIIIIIIIIIIIIII. I am back to resuscitate ma' blog since the last month til now.

Well, I'm doing awfully great these days and I'm having my holidays now. Exams are over, holidays are on going now and soon attachment. I'll be away from Sg from 14-17th April. ;)

Um... Anyway, I'm going to blog about what I've been doing throughout since holidays started til now. ;)

All I did was playing mahjong at times, went to K & Partyworld for some singing therapy, play with ma' hamsters and also watch CSI:NY at home. Hardly done any shopping except for the upcoming social night event with baby. I swear that's my first time attending such formal event. Oh yeah and very recently, baby and I celebrated our 2nd year anniversary together in a very very special way.

Cable car dining

*winks*

I wasn't much excited about the dinner initially on Thursday and Friday as baby told me that he'll be out of camp on Saturday's noon. But then I have no choice but to accept it, like no matter what. -_-" (sucks much, I know) So Saturday evening he cab over to my place and pick me up. Off we go to Habourfront. We head up to level 15 and catch a ride from Habourfront tower II to Mt. Faber's jewel box. Both of us were terrified of the height and definitely the shaky-ness of the cabin. =O He said that we gotta conditioned ourselves to the height first. LOL. Okay, when we got off from the cabin, we waited aside while they asked us what we wanna have to drink for appetizer, main course and dessert. Choices are, Mocktail/champagne, red/white wine or coffee/tea. We choose champagne, white and coffee-tea.

The trip was half an hour for each dish and every half an hour, there'll be someone taking photos for us. Due to the evening timing which is quite hot, I felt bit dizzy during the main course. I feel so suffocating. But the sunset was awesome and when the sun sets, the cabin became blinky and cooling. Awesome max. When they serve the dessert, it came with a bouquet of flowers. I was like DAMN SHOCK YOU SEE. Cos I saw other girls from other cabins have flowers. Then I told baby that pretty girl like me don't need flowers one. But he surprise me with it and said that pretty girl like you need flowers one. HAHAHA. That day I feel damn damn damn happy and like princess lahzxcxz. *grinning from ear to ear*

Anyway, ENVY ME YO. HAHAH. -_-"
Overall experience was awesome, VERY.

Shall end here anyway.

"Happy 2nd year anniversary baby, I luv you."

23rd mth

2011-02-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

Happy 23rd monthsary to us.
♥

Hi Bibi

happy 23rd monthsary to you and me! ^o^ Can't believe it that we're already together for 23 months, which means! 1 year and 11 months! =D We've been through all sorts of obstacles. National Service is our biggest challenge and also a test to our relationship. Although it is emotionally tough for the both of us but I experienced the feeling of being independent. I feel that although we're brought apart by NS, I still feel that our heart ♥ stand together and beat together as one. We've got very very strong heart telepathy. Honestly, NS 算是什么！=D

I remember in helping you for your assignment the day before. I came across this word call 'loyalty'. It means to stick to one regardless of circumstances, commitment to something that we're committed in. Unconditioned love. Loyalty is call 忠(zhong). The character is made up of 中(center) and 心(heart) . To me, it means standing at the center of the heart. Not falling off from the edge or running away. We've got very strong loyalty within us and I'm sure the rapport that we've built will not fall easily. We are us, hun. ♥

Knowing you was the happiness and utmost blessing of my life. You're the best boyfriend ever ever ever. Each day I'm so looking forward to the day that you'll propose to me, marry me, walk down the aisle together, play with my 姐妹s, take wedding photos together and live our lives together til we grow old with wrinkled faces, hands and feet. 4 years and 1 month more to go! =D

I love you.
These are the only 3 words I'd say to you to conclude off this post. Because I know that these 3 words meant more than what I wanna talk about you. ♥

Love,
Magdaline

sorry

2011-01-30T18:23:00.000+08:00


That's when I luv you, when nothing you do can change my mind. =)

Haven't been blogging much lately. Sorry. D:

Haven't been blogging much lately due to my boring lifestyle.
So yeah, well... Guess I'm gna close down my blog. Or maybe leave it stagnant. How? =O

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twenty third monthsary is coming up. ♥!
Heading for our 2nd year anniversary, xoxoxo

This is our luv

2011-01-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

I seem like a stupid girl, always crying because of some small things.

But each and every time I cried, it was not in vain. It was all for baby, especially after he went to serve the nation.

This is the luv that we've been thru so much together and this is also the luv that is the one telling me not to give up easily. With him serving the nation isn't easy for us to maintain the r/s. However, despite all obstacles, we made it through.

Suddenly I feel so speechless and don't know what to talk about.

Well...

Baby, I luv you. This time round I've dropped into the pit hole that you've set up to lure me in. I've fallen for you since 2 years ago, The pit hole isn't cold. In fact it is warm and nice. I don't wanna leave the pit hole. I just wanna be with you. For every little things we've done, it is always known as our sweetest memories. =)

Thank you for all these time. And I'm sorry for not being the kind of girl that is sweet, nice and gentle. Yet you've accept me for who I am.

I luv you! :D

LEGAL

2011-01-07T11:01:00.002+08:00


=D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Me, Fongmay, Mash, Xinyi, Sihan and Shuyi!

Double happiness! I passed my HA and my retest for medication. (y)

After tonight I'll have loads of photos to blog about. ^^

short update

2011-01-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hello readers.

Been feeling moody and upset recently, worst of all, throwing tantrums unnecessarily. Get agitated easily. I'm sorry for all the fucking attitude I gave to any one of you recently. Seriously sorry. =/

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Lately, I've been spending time with my new Itouch. Well, some heartfelt words here. (and also somehow the reason why I've been feeling so upset recently)

It's 3 more days to my 18th and initially I do not have any plans at all cos I have absolutely no idea of how to celebrate it at all. The day itself baby will be preparing for his graduating parade march so I don't blame him. Then, I was excited when Jenise♥ decided to plan for my special day. Til Sunday I was soooooooooo hyper and looking forward to it. Big sad news falls on me yesterday. Within an instant I felt so disappointed and speechless. Almost everyone couldn't make it. I feel like scolding everyone "Fuck you, cannot make it then please don't give me high hopes from the beginning". THIS IS HOW I FELT. SO, I told Jenise♥ that might as well cancel.. Then we come up with another plan.

Now, I'm trying to confirm attendance by knowing how many people are coming over to my place on Sat for steamboat yet not much avail. FINE. I'll just celebrate with whoever is coming. TSK.

Someone, please teach me how to express out those kind of extreme disappointment. Extreme to the very max one.

But, Jenise♥ made me happy today. ^^
*Secret*

Alright, just only some rants.. So end of my post! =/
P.S/ I've decided to get a Crumpler bag instead of Manhattan portage.

For real, or taunt?

x'mas eve!

2010-12-24T09:33:00.000+08:00

♥

Todaye is X'mas eve! And I'm getting my Itouch today.

Well. Recently been feeling awfully moody due to PMS. Fml anyway. =/ The feeling is like as if I'm having bipolar depression. -....-"

ANYWAY, enough of that.
=)

I'm gna meet baby later. HOW EXCITED I AM! MWahahahaha. ^^
And can't wait for tmrw! :D Kite flying!!!!!!!!!

that's all. mehehehehe

wishlist

2010-12-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

Be it Christmas or Birthday... I just wanna have my own wish list. I used to do it but now hardly ever. And since my blog is sooooooooooooooo dead, I've decided to blog my wish list down here. I don't MEAN to hint anyone ah! HAHA!

I want a...

Home make strawberry shortcake
Manhattan Portage Vinyl sling bag (red)
Blackberry Bold 9780 (either colour)
Mixer
Oven
Microwave oven

That's all for now. HAHAHA.

AHHHH. I missing baby now. Damn, he always make me miss him leh! TSKK :P
xoxoxoxoxoxox ♥!!

dead blog

2010-12-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

Can this be our wedding photo? HEHEHE!

2 weeks of not seeing baby is killing me. But it was ended last weekend. =) Had a short yet awfully awesome weekend with him. ♥♥

Spend my Saturday noon by staying at home knitting... A phone pouch, but yet to be done. =/ After that cab over to baby's place then head to Pasir Ris with his dad and pick baby up. That night baby came over to my place instead. Then yesterday noon we head to double helix bridge. I feel so proud to be a bio student. LOL.

Baby: "Why the floor lighting have A, T, C, G one?"
Me: *thinking*
Me: "ORRRRRRRRRH!!! AT, CG!!! Cos this is double helix bridge!!"
Baby: *look at me blurr-ly"
Me: "AT, CG is in our DNA. They are paired tgd. And this is double helix bridge! Our DNA strand structure is called 'double helix'! So this is called double helix bridge with ATCG!"
Baby: "My smart baby!"
Me: "Of course!" *zuai face

HEHEHEHE..

There ain't much things over MBS so we head to Vivo by bus to get some snacks to fill our tummy up and then walk around to see if there's any nice place for dinner. Initially we wanted to try out King Louise or however-you-call-that. But ended up settle down in Mussel Guys. (Y)(Y)

MUSSEL GUYS!

Ambient: ★★★★☆
Price range: ★★★☆☆
Food quality: ★★★★☆
Service: ★★★★☆

Wild mushroom pasta

Lamb T-bone with pan seared dory fillet

Steamed mussels with white wine sauce

Creamy mussels with lemon butter sauce

After eating. HEHE *burpzxc!*

The mussels were big and juicyyyyy. It is sooooo nice I swear! And they're having promotion!! 350gm of mussels free 200gm! I forget the price alrdy. -_-" Those mussels are enough to full 2 person. Baby and I eat until sooooo full. But anyway, baby and I spent a total bill of 50.50sgd. Including all taxes and charges. Worth it, TOTALLY. Thanks to big bro's recommendation. =)

Head home from Vivo to pack my stuffs and then to baby's place. I'm soooo sleepy and I slept at his house almost immediately after reaching there. =/

That's all for my weekend! ^^ And 3 more book outs to baby's passing out parade! YAY! (Y)(Y)

oh why

2010-12-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

oh why must I fall for you so crazily?
oh why the absence of you makes me miss you so crazily?
oh why when the moment you hold me and kiss me, I wished for the time to stop?
oh why when the moment you hold my hands, my shy heart flutters like a butterfly?
oh why I couldn't pick myself up after falling so badly for you?
oh why must I always dress up just for you?
oh why why why?

because, you're my boyfriend.
Not only you're my boyfriend, you're my best counselor, my best friend, my buddy and someone whom I rely on very much. You are why I luv you.

xx

awesome

2010-12-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

^THIS ONE, LAGI BEST!

^Squid ink pasta with salmon steak.

^Best carbonara ever.

^I clean my mouth while im eating the pasta. LOL.

This wasn't small at all. I swearrr, I couldn't finish it at all.

Friday wasn't that blue to me at all. ^^

After school, head to JE complex and have dinner with Yh. After that homed and then met up with big guy at canal to jam. Had a nice chat with him and got back like 15 mins ago.

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I miss cornetto. =( I'm wondering if he's being frozen like a harden cornetto or not. Cos he's at sit test now. That's why this weekend was taken away. However, Im glad on the other hand. I can make full use of this weekend to study. ^^

"I'm prepared to face things that is coming on its way. I'm your girlfriend, I want to be supportive of you and be independently functioning. We're growing up and will be having much more responsibilities. I luv you cornetto. And definitely I miss you. =("

LML [Luv ma' life]

2010-12-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

I'm not like some losers. Deletes off what I wrote on their wall and don't even respond anything. Probably they scared others would see.

I live my life carefreely, happily, stressfully and openly. I don't do despicable things like sowing discord between couples and scold someone a fucking bitch randomly. I don't act cute and I don't need to act weak to go around telling people "I've enough,", "I've given up," or "I'm tired of it,". I don't need to flirt with other people's boyfriend even if I'm single. But sadly, I'm attached happily now. My guy is way better than the jerks out there and of course I'm faithful to my guy. ^^

I LUV MA' LIFE! ♥
COS YOU'RE SUCH A LOSER, DON'T YOU KNOW THAT?

xoxo, your favourite fucking rude bitch, me. ^^

Can't help it

2010-11-28T21:25:00.001+08:00

Lately I'm feeling so vex and dilemma over baby's signing on on SAF. (Air)

At first, I thought that he would really go for army instead of air force. Friday he told me that if he really go for army, he'd withdraw air force. But it seems like he couldn't bear to withdraw it. Even til then if he were to really withdraw, he would have done that earlier. Cos Friday is the last day to submit the withdrawal form. However on Friday night, I heard his convo with Amy. I thought I was dreaming, he did really go for air force instead of army. My heart sank a bit, but least expected tho. He got so excited by only talking about air force.

The reason why my heart sank was because...
I thought that after his period at Tekong, life would be much better for the both of us. At least he'll get to a unit or vocation that will allow him to stay out, so that we both got more time together. Honestly and frankly speaking, there were two most devastate point of time for me while he's in Tekong. First, his confinement week. I couldn't see him and feel him. But I go through it. Second, his field camp week. His field camp week was a killer to me. I'm really really very devastated and really, feel like giving up on the waiting. Only until the text he sent to me. It keeps me going. I've never felt so despair before.

Those times I really feel like giving up. I couldn't bear to tell baby this personally. But he'll read my blog during every book out. I'm sorry baby. =(

But told him something this noon.

I thought that it's worth it by doing all my projects only on Sunday late evening when baby is parted from me. Cos I thought that after his Tekong life, he'll be staying out. So that, even if I do my projects on Sunday late evening, I'll be able to meet him on weekdays. It's like, I don't have to stop my projects on weekend just to accommodate him. But accommodating him seems worthwhile to me. So I don't mind.

I've got no 100% confident in myself. This time round isn't 4mths. It's 9 mths. 9 long mths. I'm really... heart sunk.

I really stupid and feel like an asshole. Pea brain me. Why must I cry over the slightest thing, like every time?

It's always "I thought" and not "I'm sure". Life's like this,

untitled

2010-11-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

I just feel like shunning away from them. That's how I feel and what I wanna do. I doubt we're important to each other anymore. It's not like the past. Life isn't sweet anymore, especially after when we all grow up.

True enough, easy come easy go.
Except for a few precious gems.

I'm not thinking too much but this is life,
Had hell loads of questions but nobody could give you the answer. Isn't it?

=)

boring

2010-11-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

Needless to say, every monday is so boring.

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kthxbye.

a pile of tidbits are calling for me, should I munch on them...? :/

2010-11-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

Pretty hubby ♥

Scrapbook for 20th monthsary =)

Gayboy♥


Muackszxc! =D

I've been feeling sian recently.

When I'm doing my work, baby keep running into my mind. But when I'm with baby, projects keep running into my mind.

wtfuck? hahahaha.

Went to swimming with baby♥ this morning. I feel so glad that he's enlightening me. =) I feel so much better after pouring to him.

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Well well well.

Hecticcc ahhhh!

Byebye blog, gna blog when I think that my life is interesting. =)

I need some luv.

oldies

2010-11-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

雨下了，又停了。
泪流了，又干了。
你走多久，多远了，我还在这。
你说的，你忘了，可是我还记得，手心里紧握着一不属于我的情热。
爱怎会输给了时间，我的耳边，再听不见。
我以为永远不会变，最习惯了明天见。
放手了该回到原点，心会受伤也能复原。
我会学着自己走出从前，祝福明天。

-明天见 by 王心凌

well well well...

2010-11-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

How I wish there's 2 of me in this world. To share my problems to another me.

Dear web diary,

today is Wednesday and I keep thinking that today is Sunday. It is unusual to have baby♥ with me during the weekday. Hehe. Well, these few days my temper weren't that good, probably it's due to the changing weather and of course, ICA(s). ICA(s) are killer and I'm halfway through only one of it. FML.

This week is exhausted and fast enough for me. Probably I'll enjoy this weekend a lot. Gna head to town and maybe catch HP 7 with baby♥. =)

Actually I'm not looking forward to my 18th but now I guess I'll be looking very forward to it. Celebrating with Jen♥ and Shannon and co. =D

That's all for the day. Gna turn in now.

hugs and kisses,

lifestyle

2010-11-14T19:12:00.000+08:00

I dislike this kind of lifestyle a lot, especially after baby got into NS. I maybe lamenting here but I am feeling all these.

I am feeling very very awful now. I need some hugs... ='(

sighhhh

2010-11-13T10:03:00.001+08:00

This week is so so so so meaningless for me. -.....-

Brainy or brainless

2010-11-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

My blog has been quite dead lately. Probably I should come up with some sensational gossip/talk/post here.

You know when you dislike a person, dislike him/her so much that how you wished you could insult or confront him/her right in the face. I guess you're not the only one who feels that way.

There's a person which I dislike as much as how some of the people does.
I got a question,

"Imagine your relationship with your boyfriend was being discord by a girl whom you regard as, best friend."

How would you feel? Likewise, IF I WERE TO have this experience, both baby and that girl will be in deep trouble. AND, guys please, don't be so fucking blind to trust someone outside than your girl. Imagine the pain she carry and the fucking attitude you give her. Besides facing all these fuck up matters, she still forgives you. Where the hell do you find such a high tolerance girl and forgets bout everything and move on with you. Where the hell do you find a girl that says she can't bear to leave you after all these fuck up matter? Do you even feel guilty?

Yes I'm talking about some brainless people here. I don't fucking give a damn about them bitching bout me at the back. Cos I'm stating all the facts down here. And I don't give a fucking damn about these people after this post. Why I'm talking bout all these? It's because someone whom I care was badly hurt and I feel heartache for her and also, this kind of people should have their masks removed.

Please, don't be a fucking hypocrite. It won't bring you any further.

This time round identity should be anonymity. Next time round if things get worst, I'll shoot names out immediately and post on fb's wall.

Why the hell in this world there's such people?

Brainy or brainless?

2nd day

2010-11-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

Dear web diary,

today is the second day of baby♥'s field camp. Since yesterday it has been raining and also every moment I'll be wondering if he's freezing in the jungle. No doubt that NS are good at having their men in tough time while their men's girlfriends are out there worrying for them constantly tho knowing that their boyfriends will be fine. But, this is human instinct. =)

I'm sure he'll need my hug badly after this week. Three and a half more days to go sweetheart! I'll be by your side whenever you need me. I promise. ♥

Well, recently I've been vexing over some personal matters... But I'm alright now, feeling so much better even tho I still doesn't have to answer to it.

That's all. Gna turn in now for tmrw's long day.

xoxoxo
Mag =)

blue 20th monthsary

2010-11-08T19:31:00.000+08:00

Today is Mondayyyyyy and I'm feeling blue again. I feel extremely blue and vex today. I've thinking about something for quite a while already and no answer has yet to be given to me. It's a big no no to talk about it.

I miss baby sooooooooo much and yet I couldn't hear his voice for 5 nights. ='( Feeling damn awful over it and teary, of course. School sucks today. I have no idea why I've got no motivation for this semester. I feel lousy and sucky. Well, my Mondays are always like that. I guess I'll be fine when baby is out of Tekong. WHICH IS EXACTLY 2 MORE MONTHS! =D

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

forever luv

2010-11-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

爱你, 不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见forever
才了解自己,
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜

爱我, 有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风深情
温柔的安抚,
我的不安定
所以我要
每年研究你的笑容
Wo~~
多么自然

Forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后,
你会是所有
幸福的理由

爱情, 是场最美最远的旅行
沿途遇经泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙的熔化
我的不安定
不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
WO
多么自然
你感动的眼睛,
我沉默的声音,
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
I love you ~~
直到永远
oh
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happy 20thhhhhhhhhhh

2010-11-07T21:43:00.001+08:00

♥
Happy 20th monthsary...
to my sweetest luv, Kayson

Tho you're going to have your field camp tmrw (Of all, on our monthsary -..-), but I really hope that you enjoy your field camp cos it's a "once in a lifetime" experience. I enjoy our advance celebration with you and hope you'd like the scrapbook that I've made for you. Hehehehe. Thank you for your luv and everything for the past 20 months. Our relationship is getting strong especially after you got into NS. Anyway, all my mushy words are in the scrapbook! And you've read it already. I promise you to take care of myself and be strong okay? Similarly, you must not feel heavy hearted and emo every sunday alright? I'm sure you'll be reading this on Sat. =) Well, last but not least, I luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv you very very much! Muaaaaahhhzxc! ♥ ♥ ♥!!!

on side note, Friday I skate for near 20km. That was a killer, REALLY.
& Red crocs doesn't have my size. =( Shall wait for it then.

HEHE that's all.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

omgawd

2010-11-03T00:06:00.001+08:00

omg omg. i really hate pms. it has been making me feel down and awful recently and i realised i break down easily these few days. i'll be fine soon.

=)

heartache to my sweetest baby. =(
i luv you and im looking forward to this Friday with you! :D
hwaitingggg! Mwaaaaaaaaaahzxc! (^>o<^)

November, first

2010-11-01T08:26:00.000+08:00

It is monday and it is the 1st of November. I'm feeling shitty down here. Totally had no idea why. I'm going to school in 15 mins time and I'm gna post all my shitty feelings here cos I had no one to talk to right at the moment.

Probably I'm feeling this way is due to monday blueeee?

Well, had been voicing out to baby what's wrong with me recently. Suddenly I feel so pessimistic about my own life and felt terrible over it. Everything's fine... Except when a word came into my mind, I feel so down. Friendship. I'm thankful for hs, wh, yh, yj, ken, hq, jen and my polymates for being there for me whenever I need them very badly. but some were disappointing to me. i don't know why. i don't blame anyone at all. I guess I'm just think a lil bit way too much. PMS is a bitch, moodswing and paranoid.

Tears are verging on my eye rims but im okay. Just that... I miss my very very old clique a lot. supper and late nights out. however, it is totally different now. And I've told baby that I've got no intention of celebrating my 18th bday after what i've experienced this year.

oh well. this is me, always think too much. Especially during pms period.

emo.

dead blog

2010-10-24T19:43:00.000+08:00

Suddenly my blog is so dead. That's why i gotta revive it now.

This weekend didn't really do much things except for going out with baby. Now he's booking in again.

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Anyway, new sem of school is somehow hell. but gotta get used to it. =)

I've got nothing else to say..

bird-day

2010-10-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

Have a blessed birthday! ;)
to
Sebastian bigbro(22 y/o), Ayyub(29 y/o) and Pamelaaaaaa(20 y/o)!

School, boring. HAHAHAHA. Met up with babyluv for awhile then head home for dinner then daddy fetch him to pasir ris. That's all! =D

Skating tmrw! *excited*

firstdayofschl, suckz

2010-10-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

This morning I could bearly, BEARLY open my eyes. I just wanna lay back down and snuggle under the blanket with my bolster to carry on sleeping. Cried so badly last night that I could bearly widen my eyes, so p-u-f-f-y. =="

Lesson starts at 1010hrs todaye and it ended at 1255hrs. However, Cxx over run the time. (as usual tho). 2 hours of lab, I'm so sleepy manzx. I feel like laying on the bed and doze off just now in school. =/ This sucks I swear, =( Baby text me suddenly and telling me that tmrw he's gng to SDC and will be able to book out for a few hours. *HAPPY ME* Tmrw I'm able to meet him for awhileeee! ;D At least it brighten up my day. Cos tmrw's lesson meant to be 0800hrs, but ended up to be 0900. YESSSSSSSSA! \m/

OKAY, shall end of here. im so so so sleepy now. Gna nap awhile til baby call me. ;D

can't help it

2010-10-17T21:17:00.000+08:00

had no idea why suddenly i feel so down. this is bibi's 3rd book in and suddenly i got home tearing, alone in the room. it's just suddenly.

I feel so down, really. Can't help but to feel this way..

piktureeeeka!(z)

2010-10-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really like to take pictures of bibi, his expression really makes me smile. Regardless of what kind of expression he's giving. =)

Drink of the year, Sjora mango-peach juice! ♥!

AH HAH! Candid babehhh! =P

Thanks ah, Karen. LOL.

This is what I'm given by the doctor when I went to the clinic 2 days ago. Antibiotics, throat lozenges, cough pills, flu pills, nausea pills, paracetamol, gastric pills. =(

Magdaline, this is crazy.

2010-10-14T01:18:00.001+08:00


I must be crazy, -_-"

Thinking of getting married in the middle of the night, 0117hrs.. I must be really crazy. -...-" Not enough sleep, this shows that I'm gna turn in now with my bad gastric that relapse suddenly. Ciaozxc!

Gdnite all! Long way to go before getting married! LOLzxc

Sick, again

2010-10-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sick for
4th day already.

Super sad case. Got high fever for the past 3 days and throw up for 4 times a day on Monday.(P.S/ I throw up transparent fluid for the 1st and 2nd, greenish yellowish fluid for the 3rd and food for the last.) Drag maself down to the clinic ystd and consult the doc. Throat infection, stomach/gastric flared up and poor appetite. In conclusion 7 kinds of medicines to be consumed. emoshitzxc. =(

fml, my school is really slow in announcing semII's tt. it is pissing me off as i couldn't make any plans for next week. meant to be released on the 11th, but they change it to the 13th which is today. yet again i went in to the portal and check, they told me it has been changed to 15th. FUCKMYLIFEZXC! 15th is on the Friday ley, how to make plans. knn. lifesuckstothemax. -_-"

fine, just leave it. not much plan next week either. HEHE! That's all folkzxc. Gna rest soon.

xoxoxoxoxo

19th

2010-10-10T21:45:00.001+08:00

It's been 19 months since we got together...
&
I luv you deeply from the bottom of my heart sweetluv...

Happy 19th monthsary baby!(Plus another 2 days.. =/)
xoxo! ♥!

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Catch 'Voyage de la vie' with Baby yesterday. It was thrilling and awesomezxc! Feel like catching it again. (Y)(Y)(Y)

Just sent Baby to Pasir Ris with his mummy. Once again, I'm sick. -...-" His first book in I'm having slight fever and now his second book in, I'm having sore throat, flu and fever. =(

fmllllllllllllll. zxasdzcxsa -...-"

Anyway, shall get a rest nao and pictures will be uploaded soon!

xxxxxxxx

Best weekend ever.

2010-10-04T14:49:00.000+08:00

Though the 4 days that bibi♥ book out were lesser than the time that we usually had together, but it was the best weekend that I've ever had. Because we had each other accompany.

Some of the pictures look retarded tho. -..-" Well, he's in again. Another 5 days without him. But it's okay, Friday's our 19th monthsary! =D ♥!! Gna catch 'Voyage de la vie' with him. HEHE, SO EXCITED ONLY. =/

Lazy to continue blogging cos I've got nothing else to say.

Ciaozxszc

THURSDAY!

2010-09-30T13:31:00.000+08:00

Happy me today! =D BABY'S BOOKING OUT TODAY! (Y)(Y)(Y) Will be seeing him in less than 5 hours time. WOOTS!

But on the other hand I'm super pissed offffff. KNNPCB.

There's so many loud knockings on my ceiling since early in the morning. Ccb, it goes on and on without stopping. Fuck, it's getting onto my nerves and pissing me off. I cannot even watch my show in peace or listen to any music. SERIOUSLY, THESE PEOPLE OUGHT TO GET SOME SCOLDINGS... KNNNNNNNNNNN.

midnight thoughts

2010-09-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

Should I celebrate my upcoming 18th(counting down is 3 and half months -..-) at club? YJ suggest to me that. I'm still considering stillll... HEH. I don't know why each time during this period of time I will start to think of how to celebrate my birthday. SO KIASU CAN??! -....-""

Any ideas? HEH HEH

it's okay

2010-09-28T11:23:00.000+08:00

No point crying or brooding over what's already done. Tho I am still feeling down over my lousy results. Well, MAG!! BUCK UP THE NEXT SEM! =D

Awesome day

2010-09-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

Awesome day with Yingxuan today. Pictures are still with her tho. ^^

wasdwasd

2010-09-27T13:16:00.000+08:00

In life, people always replaced the word 'regret' with a phrase call 'it was a mistake'.

when I close my eyes, I think of you

2010-09-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

Today will be the second Friday that I'm spending alone while everyone is out there having fun. I feel so far away from him despite the constant phone calls that we had almost every night. I can feel his presence but I can't feel his touch. It's been 12 days without him with me.

Each night it took me quite some time to fall asleep. I'd be staring at the ceiling thinking of him and hoping that time will pass, quickly. Tho everyday is moving very fast, but without him with me, everything seem so slow. I'm missing him, as much as I missed the shooting star and hoping the next one to come real quick.

Coping at home for the past few days is really a boredom to me. However it makes me reflect efficiently. Soon, very soon I'll be able to see him. Just 5 more days. =)

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I feel down and empty for no apparent reason just now. However, feeling so much better now. =)

Friday, is really suckish to me. Then, it'll be a looking forward day for me. Cos I'll be looking forward to his book out every week. =)

My baby is becoming a man. Aigo. LOL.
xoxo

webcam without you in it

2010-09-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

Been webcamming and blasting songs in the room for the past 15 mins. KAN NIN NA is what I feel like saying. Don't bother to ask why, fuck my life. I only know that don't fucking talk to some people that will fuck you back with thousands of words and make the whole problem seems like your fucking fault. No fucking logic in your brain then please don't fuck back so loudly. KNN.

Okay, enough of rantings.

I had sucha b0riinqq dayy at h0mee nehhszx. =( em0 sadd sadd. haiishzxzx.
=/

Kiam pa by using twits. =/ Well, couldn't believe it with my own eyes until now, there's people still using twit while chatting, fb-ing or blogging. (TWIT AS IN TWIITSZX NOT TWITTER FYI~) Actually a bit irritated. I wonder since when Sg's educators teach their students to use twit instead of proper English. (Okay lah, I admit I used it before cos it was trend mahzxzx. =D) Sigh, twits are so lame. -_-

ahhh, enough of it. too lazy to continue blogging alrdy. gotta go naozxz! Ciiiiiiiiaozx! =D

p.s/ One more week to be back into baby's arms!

what should I blog about?

2010-09-23T15:37:00.000+08:00

Totally had no idea what to blog about apart from what I'm doing recently. Dead boring way of living my own life.

Re-watching Goong again.

byebye.

happiest

2010-09-20T23:20:00.001+08:00

Today I had the longest phone call with Baby♥. Heeeh!

"... baby, I am very fortunate to have you to support me through my hard time and...., Even thought NS have separate us from distance, but once everything is over, we are actually more close to each other than before...."

Quoted some only. Well, I teared while reading his long text to me. I've never felt so luved in my whole life time before. I feel that I'm the happiest girl ever. And I don't know what else to say. Likewise baby say, tho NS separates us. But this is the period of time for us to grow up while maintaining our r/s. I'm sure we're able to stabilize our r/s and move on. =) NS only mahhhhzxzx. HEHEHE. So... There's nothing else I could say. Way too speechless for it. HOPE BABY WILL SEE THIS WHEN HE BOOK OUT! =D ♥

Cherish your partner a lot and mean it when you said something to him/her.

17th Sept, TGIF

2010-09-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

Was looking thru at those photos taken during the last day at SJH. It was awesome and fab. Everyone enjoy that day a lot. =) Anyway, apologies to all. Cos it was a late uploading of photos at Fb. Cos there are way tooooo many photos. =/ However, I'm left with tagging only.. 477 photos. Goodness gracious. T.T I'll try my best to get it done by today!

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Usually on Fridays at this point of time I would be either playing mahjong with my 'ka'(s) or will be out there hanging out with baby♥. But today seems so quiet for me. Coping up in my little crib and stomach aching away. -..- Guess I'm experiencing constipation.(?)

Well, in 13 days time I'll be with baby♥! Hehehehe.

Friday for this week and next week, home. -...-"

I just haven't map out my planning for next week. Blaaaa. OH YA, I've learn crocheting today on my own but it seems to be a failure. Cos the sole of the shoe became a C shape instead. HEH HEH. =D

Hongkong trip shall postpone to next year. =( Sad thing, cos there ain't anybody going. Except for B1 and I. I wanna get my Longchamp cosmos and HP bagggg. T^T

Life sucks when you have no money. =(

midnight sweat

2010-09-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

I never thought I would experienced a relapse last night. Seriously I thought I was going to die. Luckily big bro is there to help me. I kept perspiring and couldn't take any deep breath.

I'm fine now, fortunately. Thank God.

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'这一路
有时晴
有时雨
都没有关系
我们的真心超过钻石对爱的定义'

小夫妻 by 欧得洋

I was thinking bout those happy times we had. Smiling to it stupidly.
=)

22 days to our 19th month! =D ♥!!

hopefully

2010-09-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hopefully I'll be fine now. No more of breaking downs.

=)

day 3

2010-09-15T11:43:00.000+08:00

day 3, 15 more days to go.

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I've never been sooo alone before. Been tearing for 2 days already, hopefully today I won't. Well, last night break down very badly suddenly. Thank you to Steph for your hug, Karen for tissue, Yijie, Wanjin and Kimleong for being there for me last night. I can't help it but break down. Probably I'll be fine today, no guarantee. I just feel like isolating myself in my room for as long as I can. Even if I go out, so what? At the end of the day I'll have to get back home on my own and alone without baby. ='( Mummy don't feel safe for me cos baby's not with me. She rang me up last night and tell me not to go back so late cos I'm alone.

I can't help but wanting to sleep to prevent myself from tearing again.

Sigh, seriously I'm missing baby very very very very badly. Fuck my life. There I go tearing again.

I wish I'll have you with me now, but there's nothing I could do...

=(

i miss you

2010-09-15T01:56:00.001+08:00

I toss and turn in bed
Can't get you out of my head
Even though you're so far away
I need you here with me
Oh boy, why can't you see
That I can't live without your love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
Well I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

Counting every day that goes by
And the tears that I cry
You don't wanna love me no more
Wish that you could hold me tonight
I'm hurting inside

So I can make you see
That you belong with me
For me there is no other love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

credits: x

without you

2010-09-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

Thought I wouldn't be a cry baby ystd. Cos when baby and I apart, I didn't cry. However the moment I got home, I start to break down like nobody cares.

Nap without him. When he always napped with me. Couldn't get to sleep.
Got home without him. When he always lock the door whenever we got home.
Using the laptop without him. When he would always be playing his PSP.
Play monopoly deal without him. When he would always fall into my tricks.
Slept at night without him. When he would always tuck me in, kiss me goodnight and hug me to sleep.
Home alone without him. When he would always keep me company.
Thunders without him. When he would always cover my ears with his hands and pull me close to him.

That silly guy. Lights off still call me. Hear his voice for a minute and hang off. Feeling 100% relieve after that. Still I couldn't get to sleep. Thinking if he's the same as me. Staring at the ceiling..

Today woke up at 5.30, text him for awhile then got back to sleep. Gna wait for his text every single moment. End up I became so sensitive to phone's vibration.

Baby I luv you! ♥
16 more days to go!

xoxo

untitled

2010-09-11T18:43:00.000+08:00

2 more days to baby's enlistment day.

It is the first time in my whole life facing this kind of situation whereby I gotta part with my partner for a period of time (2 weeks of confinement). Accepting it pretty well. It's not like he's going to any war or overseas training. I'll get to see him after 2 weeks. Most importantly is that he gotta take care of himself and his cellphone (main source of contacting). Least I've planned my days during those 2 weeks while he's inside camp. Well, not any biggy, national service only. ♥♥

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It's been a while since I had lengthy post. All thanks to attachment and examinations. But anyway, everything is over nao. All I have to do is to concentrate on blogging and continue with what I've planned for my days while baby is inside camp.

Well, skip bout baby's enlistment and all my nagging. Recent Monday head down to NHC's HR office to get my contract sign. Nao I'm officially a sponsored student. Nothing to be proud of but I'm just trying to make my lengthy post a successful one.

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Fuck my lifeeeeee. I'm lazy to continue my lengthy post.
bye all -.-

you can be happy and it depends on how you see life.

2010-09-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

NS gna take baby away from me in a week's time.
I won't cry. Cry for what?! hahah.

cute =)

2010-09-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

ADMIT IT! It's cute okay. mytian. =D

=D

2010-08-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

MJ @ THE MOMENT
\m/

asdasdfg

2010-08-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

Some people just don't fucking understand english sentenced structure or rather, blame it to my fucking poor standard of chinese. -'-

Some people just don't fucking understand the pek chek-ness of repeating one fucking sentence for more than 3 times. -'-

Some people just don't fucking think before saying one throw tantrum. -'-

When you fucking repeat some thing for a lot of times when someone don't understand how you feel. -'-

So what if some people are one fucking parent or a person that is a bigger status than you. They don't fucking get what you mean then they'll start to give fuck up attitude and fuck them back with reasonable words turn out to be out fucking fault. Just because they don't fucking get you. Fuckers. Reasoning's not bout if you're my mum, dad or whatsoever higher status than me. I fucking feel you're wrong, means you're wrong. You don't fucking get what I mean just fucking tell me you don't get it. Don't fucking turn the table around and shoot me. -'-

For the fucking first time in my life for today, I'll say...

FUCK MINE & YOUR LIFE.

kanina cheebye fucker.
only when I throw tantrum IS ONLY WHEN YOU FUCKING DON'T GET WHAT I MEAN.
ONE BIG FUCKING LANGUAGE BARRIER. _|_

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monday blues

2010-08-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

Blue blue blueeeeee.. Even my uniform have got a blue patch.

bad bad backache today.

平。静。心

2010-08-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

If you feel that your life doesn't have any meaning to it, try taking up jobs like being a nurse, volunteer and social worker. When people gets old, then you'll know that you're much better than them. You will feel that after you take up any of these jobs, life would be more meaningful to you. Look at how the sick ones and disabled one cherish their life. Don't keep complaining about having a no life life or meaningless life.

All you have to do is just to have a lil chat with them. Even though you may not understand what they're talking about, but at least show some acknowledgement to their words so that they'll receive recognition. A simple conversation could make them smile all day. =)

When they start to tell you that they are going off soon, embrace them and tell them they are not. Simple activities like crayon colouring may be one of the easiest task for you to complete. But when you get old with wheelchair and weak limbs, crayon colouring will be one of the most difficult task for you to complete. Cos your confidence level will drop and you'll think that others does better than you. Your weak hand will cause you to lose the ability to colour the picture completely. Come to think of it, is this what they want? No.

Actually, being a nurse isn't that tough at all. It is the most beautiful job ever. The initial thoughts of getting out of nursing career was abandon shortly only just a few days at the home.

When they smile, naturally you'll feel happy.
When they enjoy their day, naturally you'll feel happy too.

Don't complain so much bout your own life. Spare some thoughts for the sick, old, disabled, unfortunate and lonely people. You're far off better than them yet you could not live your life meaningfully. They're not better than you, but they did not complaint about anything at all. They'll just smile and live their remaining years meaningfully and better than yours.

first day

2010-08-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

awesome day but sickening weather that is pissing me off.
attachment wasn't that bad afterall. =D

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P.S/ guys wudn't understand it at all.

you can be happy, depending on how you see life.

2010-08-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th month+ 1 day baby, I luv you and I alway do...!
Stalker M.

Yesterday is as though my calf consumed lemon. 我的腿很酸!

Babyluv brought me out to Bugis to shop and to eat. Tour around Bugis and bought some Korean food from BJ junction. Get my nurse watch and cardigan at the streets. Nothing much tho. After that head to Hong Guo (红锅) for dinner. (Y) Awesome chinese food I ever had, like seriously. *Song bin* I ate the 壮元something something one. Couldn't remember the full term for it. =X While waiting for the food to arrive, I took some pictures...

The waiting time wasn't that bad. =) The both of us are like hungry souls.

*Happy* When the food arrives. Indulging it happily and were bloated due to the amount of soup, and yet we still order drinks. -.- Before dinner we wanted to head to Koi for my Ice Cream MT, however the queue was super super long. So we gave up. =(

After Bugis we head to IMM for Swensennnnnszxzx! (Y)
(P.s/ I thought that I'll get sick of Swensens ice cream after last Wed's ice cream buffet, but I'm not!)
Saw Shan, Hoe and their family. So the 4 of us had ice cream tgd. =D

Head to PL to catch a view of botak Brian for awhile then go home already.

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The sight of psychology book is psycho-ing me not to open up and read it.
So no feel for it. =(

p.s/ tmrw attachment liao, all the best to me for 3 weeks. ;D

asdasdf

2010-08-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

you are a bitch to me and everyone now.
don't try to act innocent of everyone.
it's not my concern but it's a prick to my eyes.

don't let yourself becoming a whore and one day, you'll get your bad return.
then slowly everyone will know what kind of girl you are.

a period of my life

2010-08-06T10:05:00.000+08:00

Every month, there'll be a period of time my mood will deteriorate --- From bad to worst. However this is when my guy and I will quarrel, at this period of time. Instead of understanding the kind of experience that I'm having and understand that mood swing ain't a thing that I can control easily, all he say that mood swing is an excuse that I uses every month to run away from everything. Then why not reading a text cause you time to read, cause you time to reply and cause you time to think is an excuse of late replying?

Each time I flare up, even I myself know that it's mood swing. Cos that's not my usual behaviour. I can see that, why not my guy? Mood swing is NOT an excuse at all for me. It is NOT what I wanna experience. Different girls experience different symptoms of premenstrual, unfortunately I'm am experiencing mood swing as my PMS.

PMS is an hormonal shift that women will experience and women are sensitive to the hormonal shift! Stress doesn't cause PMS but when women is experiencing stress, it'll be difficult to handle it prior to PMS. That's why ANGER is seen frequently.

The symptoms of PMS are mainly fatigue, tension and irritability, difficulty in concentrating, anger, depression, food craving, breast tenderness, headaches, growing of pimples and oily face and etc...

No one says there's NO cure for PMS. There IS cure for it.

Behavioral Therapy
Cognitive Therapy
Literary Therapy
Talk Therapy

GIRLS, you may actually talk to your doctor about this situation. It is something that I've thought of it before, but I had no idea to go to who. Girlfriends, friends and family are there for you. I'll talk to my girlfriend about the problem that I'm facing once in a while. This will help in relieving how you feel.

I remember that there's once in TNP, there's a report bout a lady who counsel her doctor about very bad PMS which is mood swing that affected her family communication and work. After counsellings and regular medication, her condition got better. I've forgotten the helpline to it already.

Just on a side thought, will guys ever understand how we girls feel about it?

All I ever wanted was my guy to know that mood swing ISN'T an excuse for me at all. It is something which I've try my very very best to control already. The times that I would flare up is only when I'm vex, tried and period. Must I really go to a doctor one day and prove it to you and only then you'll understand that it is not an excuse anymore?

However, if a person is experiencing mood swing regardless of period or not, meaning every day or most of the time whether she's having period or not. Better get a counselor or psychiatrist, you might be down with depression or you're using it as an excuse only. Girls, please take it seriously and not for the sake of coming up with an excuse. And guys, please do understand.

Credits to: x, x and myself!

fridays sucks

2010-08-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

my fridays are forever at home.
it's not a nice feeling at all, everyone else hanging in town and whatsoever.
and im at home.

no life.

happy

2010-08-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

sponsorship being approved. ;D

update

2010-08-04T09:52:00.000+08:00

Attachment starts next week.
HBS practical test result.
My facebook.
The end! :D

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Attachment will be as of next week onwards and it'll be three weeks long. Will be meeting the girls for dinner someday after work. ^^ Hope the work will be a smooth one for me. =D And, HBS practical results are out. I score a B+. Was rather down and disappointed as I am hoping for an A. =( Lastly, I realise that my fb have quite a handful of AS, (Just in case you don't know what's that, it's Attention Seekers)

Definition of it.

Someone who likes to announce everything in their life on facebook to get people to feel sorry for them/react. Usually grossly exaggerated but can also be completely fictitious in order for people to respond as they don't have a life/friends.
The usual response if you ask them to stay out of your life is your a jealous bitch (and usually retards that can't spell) followed by some sort of tragic life story.
These kind of people like to constantly test their relationship/friendships to feel wanted.

If you are heeding advises of those who show you their empathy, then you won't have a miserable life alrdy. If you don't, you're deemed to be an attention seeker and an irritating fella who've got no life.

Lastly, I realise someone in school is drifting away from me slowly. I don't like. =( BESTFRIEND, you know who you are. =( *HINTTTTSZXZX* ^^

Well, gna get prepare for school later.
Hit town after school wiv clique! ♥
girls dress day. hahaha!

xo

painful feety!

2010-07-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

Short and sweet update for this space.

My human bioscience first paper score a B. (when I expect B+ or A =( )
C&CS paper I score 58% w/o the calculation wiv ICA.
My back left feet hurts and I had difficulty in walking stairs, or in fact, rotate my ankle properly.

ahh. tired.

2010-07-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

slept for near 3 hours today. and i couldnt get to sleep in the evening.
my head weighs around 1234453992034 kilos now but yet i still couldn't fall asleep. =(
(frowns)

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practical test today was alright but on the other hand it wasn't. (-.-)
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i hate fuckers that try to take away things that are meant to be mine.
i tried to snatch back but i was bitten hardly.
fucker with fuck face.
why should i be bothered bout you?

AND,
i hate people who try to invade into my own private space and try to be in my hate list, especially when you do not have interpersonal relationship wiv me. (i'm telling someone, he/she will know it naturally who he/she is. baby, it's not you, relax, okay? ♥ =D)

For example, trying to see my text when i haven't even open it and try to open it for me. telling me that i've received a text when obviously i know there's a beep. AND, intention to read my texts.

Firstly, i'll get super irritated and piss off.
Secondly, it is a form of being rude to me, which is equally means you have no respect for me.
Thirdly, maybe when it happen to you, you'll find it okay wiv you. BUT when it happen to me, it is not okay wiv me at all. Not at all...
Lastly, think of who you are to me before doing these. If you're just only a friend to me then please know where you are standing.

I'm NOT being harsh here but trying to be honest, and it's for everyone else.

做人要懂得分忖, (is my chinese correct or not ah?)

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gdnightzx.

wahlau, sian

2010-07-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

tmrw's human bioscience's practical test and im like mugging now. midnight mugging. -.-

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had a terrible night last night. woke up nearly every 2 hours. (big sad face) And im like zombie this morning. ._. after schl went to baby's place then ZzzzZzzz... (-.-)

well, im lazy to continue typing cos im losing concentration in mugging, gdnitezx all!

xo

p.s/ im so looking forward to monday's assessment on etiquette! ;)

not prepared

2010-07-21T11:46:00.000+08:00

later on I'll be having critical thinking test and damn, i've yet to study for it, msn-ing, twittering and fb-ing. (y) hahahaha. guess i'll just have to study the consolidation notes. :/

well, received first reminder for skipping lesson. hahahha, promised not to skip anymore lesson. (swear!) but 3 hours only ley. one hour i didnt go it's because im lazy and that day i've got interview in the noon, second hour is because im late for less than 10 mins and the xxx dont wanna mark my attendance (guai lanzxz to the max!) and third hour is, i didnt attend because i'm a bit lazy but not sure if anyone marked my attendance for me. :/it's okay, anyway. hahhaha. well, promised to be a good girl and not gonna skip any lessons anymore. =)

but feel a bit depress ah, however, it's okay! this will be the first and the last. =D

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im going off to study now, as much as possible.

hungry.

recovery in process

2010-07-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

coughing ain't a good feeling. becuz of cough, i vomited this morning and friday's evening. Baby came to my place straight after work to take care of me. Hope he don't catch any virus from me. =( however, he's getting sorethroat soon, i guess. :/ Anyway, thankq sweetest baby for taking care of me. Luv you deepz! ;D & I realise everytime when i'm sick, im always throwing tantrum, tsk tsk tsk, bad habit Mag. =x

my right leg is aching badly, i need some sweets. (laughs)

i'm sooooper dooooper muddlehead! i know there's ICA presentation this week, but no idea which day. Sigh, this week is full of ICA and tests. (big sad face) Plan to have lesser time with baby this week, not sure whether will honour what i just say a not leyzxzxz. HEHE.
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(30 mins later)

Finally im done wiv my preparation for tmrw's presentation, hope everything will be a smooth one! =)

I promise to call baby back but im caught up wiv the preparation, however, he'll understand one lahzxzx. Right baby? =P well, it's late alrdy. gna prepare to turn in soon.

well, just before i turn in...

if you see your name here, better date me out soon ah! cos im missing you badly! >:(

2 huiqi(s), Jenise, Matthew, Shiqi, Justin, Vivian (qad), Selynn, Shan, Nicholas Tei, Melvyn Ng, fellow 4E8, JE#53 x-colleagues and anyone that misses me and wants to date me out! =D

♥!

p.s: the previous post was a song. my boyfriend and i are still happily together. it's a 2AM song, fyi.
p.s II: "gud becomes bad, bad becomes gud. impression are all illusion that fools us, especially idiots like me. -.-"

though you've turned around for now

2010-07-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

I want to stay a little longer but I guess it’s not you...
You keep on passing off the words I am saying right now

You say that we won’t be able to see each other from tomorrow
And you try to turn around but
I can’t do that

Though we breakup now,
Though you turn around for now
I trust that you’ll come back again

Because I can’t do anything
Though my tears fall
The day that you return
I’ll stand, smiling in your presence…

There are a lot of good words…but why do you speak so harshly
I love you more than you think you know

sickbird

2010-07-16T13:41:00.000+08:00

I'm sick, once again. =(

in dilemma, i want my baby♥ to be with me but on the other hand I dont want to because i dont wanna pass on my sickness to him. recently we're abit shaky but im sure that we'll be able to go thru everything together no matter what. =) I luv you baby boy! ;)

My intention is to skip school today then coincidently im sick. have to submit mc. ='(

rar.. i feel so bored.. i want my baby now. =( =( =(
hope he'll see this!

life sux when we're sick. sigh.

halfway

2010-07-14T09:28:00.000+08:00

did project halfway and gna have breakfast then school.
blaaaaaaaa. T^T

2010-07-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

our Uno and tibits were being retain by the school librarians today. hahahahaha.
tmrw's mask fitting day! and dang, i dont even know what time is it, can anyone tell me? asap please. ;)

despicable me! tmrw and gna watch it in 3D with my darlings. ;)

"my dream is to married with you in a bright red Volkswagen New Beetle Cabriolet to be drived by you to ROM and with cans behind with a plate stating "just married"." :')

ANYWAY, in 6 months' time i'll be able to get my BTT registered! mwahahaha!

2010-07-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

thank God for me having APS.
tho i've got no lomo camera, but im able to edit. :D (Y)

2010-07-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

Happy advance 4 days birthday to dearest banana I. ;D

Facebook is pms-ing(as usual). Couldn't upload any photos yet. Sigh. Dreaddddddddd tmrw's school. End only at 9pm due to YOG flashmob. T^T

Well, I'm in the same pms-ing condition with Fb. :/ Terrible temper recently, but can't control. =( Gagagagaga~ I'll try, if not baby will hate me. (N)

I WANT KOI ICE CREAM MILKT TEA. Someone please spare 4.30 bucks to treat me ley. *blink blink*

new outlook

2010-07-11T13:55:00.001+08:00

pretty satisfy with new blogskin. (y)
back with nuffnang and added new widget, Twitter, for the new skin.
Anyway, Wed's interview was successful.
Pray hard for the result! ;)

wednesday triple date with my 2 sons and daughter-in-laws. =)
Despicable me!

hahaha. Mooooo~

untitled.

2010-07-11T10:06:00.000+08:00

狂风暴雨后终是会有晴天。

sudden

2010-07-07T11:19:00.000+08:00

Sudden rush of emptiness conquer me.

It is never easy to understand a person. It takes me near one year to understand someone who I luv deeply. Taking extra attention on the physical and also character. What he like do, what he like to eat, what he like to be, what colour he like, what kind of people that he don't like, what kind of dressing style he like, what kind of person is he and etc. Then again, questions like, "Why he don't like?", "Why he like?", "Why he behave this way?" and etc. He whom I know, is a person which it is hard for me to use word to describe what kind of person he is. For everything he does, definitely there'll be a reason behind it that he who will not say.

Spending time and effort to know someone by having the person voicing out isn't easy at all. I never knew that after all the effort that I spend trying to understand him well, what I was being told is "I just want you to understand me," Time again and again this thing had been repeating in quarrels. I wonder, why wouldn't it be me saying this? "I just want you to know how I feel when I did spend a lot of effort in understanding you and yet I'm being told off," I wished I could tell you this.

Hoping someone to comfort you and support you isn't easy. Each time something that happened or things that I don't like to see, I tried to voice out. Imagine how I feel, being criticize and not being side because he's someone that see things straightly. Imagine the feeling of accepting sorry only when you say, "And you didn't bother to say sorry,". Else, you'll not get any apology at all. If that's the case, what's the point of voicing out? I fear now, I fear of confiding in him because each time all I get is lecturing and lecturing and crying. It made me feel even worst. I don't feel like I'm a girlfriend to him at all each time such thing happened.

Concern about someone whom know how you feel ain't easy too. Each time you got angry, someone else think that you're unreasonable and your concern did not receive any recognition at all. How would you feel?

To let a guy understand how a girl feel when she's having PMS is way harder. He'd just say it's just an excuse that every month, without fail, you'll throw your tantrum at him. Ending up, having PMS = your fault. PMS for mood swing isn't easy to control at all. I did try, I try my best to not to let out any temper. But it just came out like that. I feel guilty after that trying to explain to you, yet all you tell me, "It's just an excuse only,". If that's the case, what for having myself feeling guilty and put aside my pride just to apologise? Why not letting you have a feel of PMS?

To have a guy to know what a girl thinking is one of the hardest task in the whole wide world.

I just feel, do I deserve it?

Why each time it ended up and becomes my fault?
Just because you kept quiet.

5 hours of break

2010-07-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

5 hours of break at school. -______________________-

my stomach keep growling, not because im hungry. it's because i yet to release shit out of me and i think im pms-ing. =( been eating a lot lately. T^T

well, im yet to prepare for my theory test tmrw, die.

2010-07-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

single hood these few days, date me if you want. (providing im available lah)
juz give me a text or call will do. =)

there's so many things i want to jot down badly, right here.
but because it i spend too much time envying others, voicing out seems to make me feel like a bitch.
because every time i dont seem to be getting what i want yet im being blame for repeating things again & again.

all i want to be is,
happiest and most fortunate princess in the whole wide world.
be it things that can be seen or not.

you, really doesn't know what a girl wants.
again, i know you're mad with me.
tell you what,
im way disappointed in you more than you're mad with me.

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how i wish im a bystander that can tell you off on behalf of me.

2010-07-04T11:44:00.000+08:00

recently keep raining, how to swim?
and my lazy bones are getting back. =(

2mths + 9 days left to your enlistment!

redhead & blonde

2010-07-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

♥ REDHEAD AND BLONDE,
please let me have that hairstyle pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase!

p/s: interview next wed, God bless me!

the clawwwwwwwwwww

2010-07-01T10:47:00.001+08:00

*gigggleeees*

NEW FRIEND!

xoxo

hate

2010-06-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

hate to feel tired. cos the equation will be like...

tired + stress = volcano explosion
(Y)

it's 2331 hours and i'm feeling frustrated.
blah, cos studying with a tired head does kills me.
bo bian. guess my targeted GPA dream is being dashed out. =(
please at least let me have a 3.5 and a director's list. PLEASE!!!!!!!
*dream on*

life sucks for today.
nevermind, tmrw will be my happy day!
TUESDAY = HAPPY DAY!
(Y)(Y)(Y)

when im with you

2010-06-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

smile
laughter
anger
fear
lost
touched
guilty
and many more

is how I feel when I'm with you.

Hate to quarrel with you but times you seriously don't get what I mean.

But because of some of your sickening character, times I feel like a silly girl that is throwing tantrum, FOR NO REASON. Look how stupid we are. =D Mad with you at times when you sounded sleepy while we're on the line, but I luv it when you sleep before I do. =D When I'm seriously mad with you, you'll buy food and make it with luv to pacify me especially it surprises me with a letter from you. =)

times i thought we could not make it but end up, we did.
we chose to ignore each other at times when we're angry but this causes us to realise that how important we are to each other.

the way you look when you smile...
when you laugh...
when you do silly faces...
when you cried because of me, when something happened to me...
when you hug me...
when you kiss me...
when you hold on to me tightly, afraid that i might fall any time...
when you become soften when i blink blink you...
it's all the reason for my smile. =)

you accommodate with whatever I wanna do and eat.
never complained once at all.

however all i do is to throw tantrum and give you a hard time without realising that you're doing everything is for the sake of me.

feeling guilty yet die also dont wanna apologise to you, that's the willful and prideful princess girlfriend you have. i appreciate everything that you've done for me, i luv you for who you are. i really promise to be a good girlfriend. there's so many things i wanna say but i promised you to sleep early, so i shall end here.

baby, happy belated (-.-) 15th monthsary!
i luv you and i swear it's true.
i trust you and i'm sorry for the other day's tantrum, (not enough sleep ah)
♥!

hi & bye

2010-06-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

hi, here I am, still alive.
bye, I'm off to bury myself in Biology nao. =(
exams' in 4 days time.

rather shock

2010-06-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

this morning when i got home, i saw a letter attn to me, from NHCS.

i've been waiting for it since 3 months + ago. i've been wanting it all along. it came, however when it comes to decision making, i'm still in dilemma. then, after a day of serious consideration and advices, i've decided to go for it.

least i feel that what i've been waiting for is here and i know i ought to accept it. it's all predestined by God. =)
Thank Lord for giving me this tremendous opportunity, i'll pursue it at the maximum point and prove everyone wrong. =)

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center parting for me?

2010-06-13T16:41:00.000+08:00

I've been considering it for nearly a month already, back then my hair wasn't as long as now. Anddddd... I thought of doing it when my fringe's length is near my nose area (Um, I mean the shortest part of my fringe, fyi.)

ANY FEEDBACK? =D

2010-06-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

footnote: you always let in to me. and im so used to receiving it. however, soon i'll grow up. i gotta be independent without you. that's God's purpose of sending you to NS only at this period of time. soon, your baby girl will turn to a woman and become mature. i luv you baby.

Mind you

2010-06-09T12:20:00.001+08:00

LOSER. MIND YOU, I PASSED MY PRACTICAL TEST.
stopbeingafuckinghypocrite.
you'rejustlikeanakedpersonthatistryingtocoverupforyourself.
sofunny, youloser. =)

2010-06-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

13 Sept. Only 30th Sept or 1st Oct I'll manage to hug you again.

However, time flies!

After 3 months you'll be posted out and you'll have more time with me! =)

Just gonna spend my days(during this 2 1/2 months) studying and studying...

& swimming? =)

Happy 15th month baby!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

2010-06-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

baby boy! when will you receive your enlistment letter? =(
at least i'll feel better after knowing when is it. =(

anywayyyyyyyy, it's not that i wont see you anymore. just that i'll be thinking of you most of the time and be doing assignments, projects and attachment only. =) Time will pass very fast if we both chiong towards our goal alright? luv you!

p/s: best boyfriend ever. =)
(Tho im complaining bout him all the time =P)

question

2010-06-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

would you change your life for a group of people?

or just leave it just go as the way you are.

2010-06-03T10:48:00.001+08:00

because I luv you.

2010-05-31T11:50:00.000+08:00

i wonder at times,

who am I.

will there be anyone to really know who i am?

apart from my close friends and boyfriend.

each thing i do and say, there's a reason behind to it.