3rd post of the night

I couldn't sleep for the whole night cos I was thinking of baby.

11 months past so fast that everything that we do is still in my mind.

The first time we quarrel, I complained that he's not there for me when I needed him badly. Now, I know that he need me there to be with him cos he's handling loadsa assignments. However I feel so useless by not being there to support him.

Knowing that I'm having a bad time, he'd spent endless effort by making silly faces in order to make me smile. However, I feel so useless by throwing tantrums on him knowing that he's having a bad time as well and also, make him feel disappointed by ignoring his efforts.

Despite being sensitive by his wrong signals over certain people, he could actually bear with my nonsense. However, he did not have any wrong idea about me and other guy friends that I'm close with, I feel that I'm lousy cos I'm sensitive.

Each time I throw tantrum on him I would text him sorry and he would just reply me, "baby, *hughug*". Whereas, if he were to shove me aside, he'd text me sorry. I would just ignore his text and make a fuss out of it.

Each time when I thought I'm gonna lose him, I got so scared because I don't wanna lose my boyfriend and knowing he'll have a next girlfriend to dote on, luv, hug and kiss with. He's the kind of boyfriend which girls would wanna have. I can't stand the imagination of him being with another girl. So I've decided to be his last girlfriend and him to be my last boyfriend.

The relationship between us turn out to be faster than I expected. So fast we're heading to our first year anni. Perhaps, it's time flies.

Each time he send me home, I'd call him after that no matter what. It is just to ensure myself that he reached home safely tho I'm unable to send him home.

Although he's not some kind of fashionista who follows trend. I'd always tell him that what he's comfortable with is the best dressing. He would make himself uncomfortable at times just to match up with my dressing. Times I'll surprise him with the kind of dressing he likes me to wear.

Shopping with him can be good and bad. He'll control my spending and also, help me carry my shopping bags. =D Definitely I'd seek for his opinion on what he wants me to wear during certain occasion. Bad thing is, times he'll have a bad sense of fashion for girls. Ooooopse!

I did very badly for O levels and had him disappointed. I feel damn sad about it and also cried secretly because of him. I'm seriously sorry baby.


Eleven months past just like that. We still have more to go! Remember our 5 years and 1 month more deal? I'll be waiting okay?

I luv you baby, seriously and no matter what.
You're the reason to my smile.
Without you, my days are dull and dark.
With you, it'll not be dull and dark anymore.

♥! Hope you'll see this post asap!
BABY *HUGHUG*