Nostalgia

Somehow, I'm feeling nostalgic now. I've got no idea why. Since on my way back from KL, milz of stupid things ran through my mind, making me pondering and sighing. I don't like it. Recently I feel so stuck up.

I really couldn't find the right person to do it so, Cindy's working, I can't be bothering her all the while and pouring my souls out. But somehow, I feel that she's the right person I could pour my souls out. Perhaps, digging a hole and insert my damn head in, least I would not know what's happening out there.

I'm sorry people for the recent post. Cos this is the way I could somehow really pour at least something out. ):

Still, I'm hesitating if I should go to India. Cos there's like 2 more months to go. I'd really hope that life's much more better than what I'm having now. So that, mum and Sylvester and dad will be at home peacely while Seb's at NS. A house of 5, became 4 and eventually 3 then back to 5 again. Probably, I should not worry much and just enjoy my trip. [:

I cannot predict what's gonna happen next, I just feel that, things will come crashing down if I'm still being alone. I would really thanked my friends that's always there to make my day, vent my anger on and open up my laughter. Despite my short temper and fustration, yet y'all still dare to come near me. :/

I'm really glad that I have wonderful friends around me. I'm really sorry for trying to be tough at times, but it's my habit. At times, I really had to be strong for others, I can't be weak all the time and let others collapse. I want to be there for my friends every moment whenever they're about to collapse, cos they're there for me too. Lending me shoulders, hugging me and hush me when I'm crying terribly.

Sounds like I'm very depress huh. But, that's the pressure I'm feeling I suppose. Suppress everything within me and compress it to a tiny matter inside my heart. Slowly it accumulated up like the fatty deposit along the arteries near the heart, then one day, heart attack strucked suddenly.

Well. I miss my old friends alot alot alot and also I miss the past.

I miss the older JE#53, I miss my porkmates, I miss hanging out, I miss making troubles, I miss getting scolded from my parents, I miss my once a happy family, I miss someone alot who happen to be one of the important person in my life once{a girl}, I miss sneaking out in the middle of the night, I miss miss miss miss miss... I cannot finish the list at all. It's sooooooo lonnnnnnnnng. :D

Blahhhhhhhhhh. Ignoremeformymourning,I'mjustfeelingstuckup.