Sunday night

"People always grieve over losing their partner. Then what about those who did not grieve over their partner that are gone forever?"

I'm feeling moody, I don't know why. After work I could even go back alone, but ending up at canal with ong pa. Trying to get the right thing off my chest, but I couldn't.
I don't feel like talking to anyone now. The world's crushing onto me. AHHHHHHHHHH. ): Feel like hitting down to town or something. I just feel like changing my own lifestlye and everything. It's time for me to grow up. But I've been running away from reality.
Trying to be mature, but I couldn't. The more I try to be one, the more I feel like more problems occur. All I could tell myself is, that's part and parcel of life, why not just accept it and face it? That's the way to grow up.
I'm despair with myself, my family, schoolwork, certain friends and own character building. The whole world is so suckish, the whole world sucks and the whole world sucks big time. I dislike comforting words more and more, some certainly do make me smile, but some certainly have no effect at all. I'm really very disappointed with myself though, low self-esteem. I beg for forgiveness if I were to throw tantrum over small matter.

In conclusion, I think I'm pressurizing myself too much, parents too, but indirectly. Really, I must learn to face it.

OKAY, ENOUGH.

Well. I need to shape up my body badly, cos I was being told by Keith and Eunice that I've gain weight. I wanna buy cosmetics as well. I luv Elva's figure and eyes alot. I wasn't wrong about being her fan at all. Coooooooool.

Pool and maybe Queensway later, anyone?