Ouch

Damn(!!!)

I've got a f*cking hole at the side of my mouth. -_-! Firstly, I accidently bite it last Sunday and yesterday I bite the same hole again. And secondly, I ate KFC last night. Lastly, I'm wondering if I'll kena ulcer anot.

Ouchhhhh. ):

Well. I think that my mood is getting better. Cos the hardest period of the month has ended. And...

GUESS WHAT?!

From NOW on, I'll be having liquid meals and I'll do skipping + sit ups everyday. My motive is to LOSE weight. Cos recently I've been eating ALOT and I have no idea why I couldn't control it. :C Wellllllzxzx. I die die die die also must have liquid meals with the exception of this Friday and also sometimes breakfast. I DIE also cannot gain weight or look fat. Apparently, I am fat. Very faaaaaaaat. ): I'll not let the stupid Iaene to keep saying I'm fat. -.- Damn him. HEHE. So in conclusion, don't jio me out for good food la. Cos even if I were to go, the most I'm feeling tempted and then have a drink or LIGHT meal to make myself much contented only. Hoho. Don't worry in any ways, cos I'll still eat something la. Hurhur.

Wellllllll. I have to go now cos it's gonna pour and I dont wanna get myself drenched or whatsoever. Hehe.

Sugar day people! :D

2012.

Scientists predict that 2012 the Earth will end.
Millions of people will die.

3 years plus plus time. How fast, how nice. I've planned everything nicely for my future. I wanna be a interior designer. I wanna have a family and die peacefully.

In 2012, I'm already 19. Have not even hit on 20. To think of it, it's very young. Very very young.

In 2012, will Earth really ends?

In 2012, what will I be like? Where am I? What am I doing at that point of time? Who am I with?

But overall, it's just only a prediction. Who knows when's the real doomsday?
Am I convincing myself or am I stating the facts?
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At the end of the day, humans are all afraid of death.
We deserve it? Or is it meant to be this way?

HEHE.

I'm so freaking hot and bored.

HAHAHAH.
byebye. Off to bed liaozxzx.

Muacks.

Science Centre.

I don't feel like talking much now and it's 0109 hours. I guess many of my friends are asleep.

I've spent my day at SSC with baby then JP.

Don't wanna elaborate because I don't feel like.

I may sound attitude now, I'm sorry.

I'm feeling a lil tired, bothered and slight piss off.

Is position important more than the environment that you're working at?

I admit that some people may think that I'm too young to think about this. But I'm really wondering, is position important? Some may think that it's a good thing. However, to think it conversely, things may be very smooth and nothing changes at first. But once your responsibility is bigger and it might change you, you'll not become you anymore. To some, they may maintain the way they interact with their friends, while some may not.

I'm soooo lazy to continue to rant on it. The conclusion of what I'm trying to say was, I'm sorry B1 and B2, I just don't like the mention of being promoted of whoever and whoever wanna get promoted.

p.s: my impression of JP is changing for the better one(probably it's the lack of communication between me and them), but still, I wanna go back to IMM...

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Please, don't mention about studies to me these few days. I'm extremely stuck up and may get frustrated any time. I felt that I'm losing motivation and losing interest in everything now. Especially teachers that runs you down or whoever, do you feel that there's a point to it? To others, it may. But to me, no way.

I'm feeling lousy in any way. Perhaps, I'm just feeling depress.

I don't know.

I need God, I'm stucked...

Ignore me please, I don't wanna throw tantrum at you and make you piss off. Keep me anti social for time being. I'm in shit lost and stress. I'm sorry if I've shown some rudeness in here, but I can't help it. I wanna cry.. That's what I feel like doing right now.

Baby, I need you...

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Relax

Finally I've stopped working. Yesterday's my last day of work and now I could fully concentrate on my studies now. The feeling is sooooo great. Cos I don't have to think about my weekends being spent on work. Least I could have time to do my art, to rest and to accompany baby.♥! :D

Certainly I'd be broke cos I'm not working and not working = no income. But nevermind, I've got mummy to "yang" me. x) Well, gonna save up alot alot already. Mummy told me not to resign cos I tell her that yesterday's my last day of work. But in fact, I'm just stopping work temporary cos I wanna study. She's just assuming that I'm gonna resign. I'm NOT GONNA RESIGN PEPPERLUNCH TIL THE DAY I OWN A DIPLOMA CERT. That's means I still have around 3-4 more years. Hah! And I'm not gonna change my job.

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Sighhhhhh. -.-!
I'm so effing bored and hungry now. *SADDDDD FACE*

x.x

Snaps.

Happy birthday darl! :D
Finally turn 16 eh? HAHA. Luv you la! :P

Alright. I have whole loads of pictures to upload, but I picked only a few. Ate Sakae yesterday and that's all.

Blah. I'm so derived of sleep now and I'm working later. How nice...
Well, today's pay cut off and I've finally chiong until my target. :D

I feel so lazy to get out of the bed and get prepared for work. ):

Whatever -.-"

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I still have to get my big butt out of it. Damn.
Anyway, it's just a short post. Gotta fly now~ Ciaos!

I promise I will.

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

Credits to Azlyrics.com

I wish I was special, but I'm a creep.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

Credits to: Azlyrics.com & Youtube.com

pictures of you, pictures of me.

♥

Roarrr~ :/

♥

Click to enlarge and read it. [:

After sunset ;D

Pictures of you, pictures of me, hung upon the wall for the world to see.

*Happy*

My dslr is not dusty anymore. [: Cos I was playing with it before going to bed, shall upload it tonight if possible. {:

Welllllllllllllll.

I had fun with both my brader and sista. :D Yesterday when we went out, 80% of the time we're laughing like one crazy idiot. And we walked back from JP. :}

Hurhur. Anw, short update

Uh..

Suddenly a thought rush in to my mind.

OR should I say, sudden anxiety?
But it's okay, an hour or so later, the anxiety will be gone.

[:

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Well, the question I had in my mind has already been answered. It made me like a silly girl and I feel like digging a hole in the floor to bury my head in and fill it up with cement. *Blushhhhh*

Baby, sorry k? *Blush for the second time*

Alright.
Shall end here. It's just a lil update.
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*Happy 1 year anniversary, glam-ohglam.blogspot.com! :DDDD*

Mixed.

I miss this man, seriously I do.

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I'm gonna spend 1/2 of my weekend by working. And another 1/2 with baby. Then next Friday shall be my last day of working, before I go MIA officially. Gonna mug hard for the upcoming exams and also, fully focus on Art.

This period of time will be very tough I guess. I just realise that I gotta handle not only studies. I have to handle things like, my own relationship, my friends and especially my family. I have to make my time adequate for everyone and everything that I do.

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Once again, sorry people. I know recently I'm frustrating and complaining alot. I got so stress up that I don't even know how to express it out. And I think that I'm having PMS. I beg for forgiveness, apologetic bout my rudeness.

I got so blue these few days. I ate alot and I tend to moodswing like one bitch. Oh yea, sorry baby. I didn't mean to be like a little girl to you that frustrates and showing you my blue side. Perhaps these few days I'm too tired that I tend to think alot and be paranoid.

Just ignore me.

Well.
I'm craving for seafood. Damn. =.=

蓝色星期四

我不明白,我不懂.
我一直想,却又想不通.
可能我只是太过敏感.
或是太过累了.

I'm feeling blue again.
I guess I'm having PMS.
I guess I'm going crazy.

Thursday blue(??)

今天...
在学校里没什么事发生.

只是有些小事使得我有一些的不高兴.
免谈了.
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今天一整天我都是皱着眉头.
不要问我为什么.
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I just realise that I couldn't carry on with having a chinese post. That'll be awful for me. -_-"

Forget it, I shall end the post right here then. Bye all.

Blue.

*Yawns*

School is such a pain today. I'm feeling very blue today. ):
I couldn't draw anything during Art today.
Even Miss Lee could see that I'm feeling extremely lethargic.
Skipped English extra lesson, cos I feel that it's meaningless to attend English extra lesson on Mondays and I'm having heavy head. ):

Blue blue blue blue blue...

I feel tired now, tho I've napped.
I feel like meeting baby... But I guess he's rather upset with me and also he's feeling tired. Somemore he's working now. ._. Sorry baby. )x

Seriously I am feeling very blue now.

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Well. A minute ago the blue-y feeling I had, has disappeared. Why why?

Firstly, Selynn is willing to be my model for my shoots this coming either Sunday or next weekend. This could help both my Art and photography skills.

Secondly, I teh to my mum bout getting the Everlast windbreaker and she's willing to pay 50% of the cost price for me. :D

Lastly, I crapped with my mum just now. ;D
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Alright, I'm fine now. Bye all. ♥ xoxo.

Money.

I've been working alot recently. Gonna work til the end of this month and I'll stop working til Os is over.

I'm broking. REALLY. I'd just hope I'm just some rich man's daughter, like, I get whatever I want and end up not learning anything. For example, splurge like nobody cares and never thought about parents' hard earned money, never learn to be independant, being spoilt and never learn to grow up.

But, I would not wanna exchange all this in order to be rich. I don't wanna get despise by people who thinks that, OH YOU'RE A MISSY. YOU CAN SPEND ON WHATEVER YOU LIKE AND BOSS AROUND, BEHAVING LIKE A SPOILT BITCH. -.-! Oh please, I despise people who tends to act like they're rich or they're already rich and doesn't know how to think.

At least I'm working now, I'm glad that at least I'm able to spend my OWN HARD EARN money and feel the pinch. I wouldn't even dare to ask my parents for extra allowance unless I've got no choice or they'd just give me extra on their own accord. I don't do online shopping, I don't splurge(Uhhhh.. That only occur at the end of the month when my pay have already dried up.) and I don't go for good food that often. I prefer homecook food or some coffeeshops' food that's niceeee. :D

I hate people who thinks that money could settle most things. But, money has already blinded most of the people in the society and became too practical. Why on Earth does people work so hard to earn money and meet their own needs and make themselves happy? In the sense that, money could buy their happiness?

*Puzzled*

This world is just so complex.

Killing time. (Past)

Small girl :D

Sexy baccccck! :X How I wish I'm this slim, ONCE AGAIN! :X

Tingtings! :D

I luv Dave. :D

Jesslyn♥

Sunrise? :X

Zero to Hero 1 :D

Me, Wayne, Shan, Kenneth (:

Lockzx.

Jusri! :D

JE #53's Ronald! (:

Kelvin. Lengzai! :P

Yubzxxzx.

Anba! :D

JOHNNNNN BENIGAY! :D

M crews! :D

Naz, Mariah, me, Wendy, Sheila and Rafi!

Yazid!

All these pictures are more than 6 months ago, 80% I mean. :X

AND AND AND, who's willing to go out on a photography trip with me??! MY DSLR IS COLLECTING DUSTTTTTZX. And I wanna improve on my photography skills. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD Providing you're willing to bring the tripod stand out, cos I'm lazy to bring mine along.

WHO WHO WHO? :DDD

tell me ayeeee? Prolly this Sunday or next! :DD