respect

Guess my plants are ready to be harvested and my fishes are dying of algae and hunger. I'm phone bloggin' now and I'm unable to check out my Country story and Fishville! :C

Just got home and is lazy to get my ass to the com. My leg's hurting me, in ankle, kneecap and thigh. :C

Well, life sucks when I'm so looking forward to go shopping with baby in the noon and everything was cancelled just a moment ago. Don't ask me why.

And anyway, for some reason, I hope that everyone would respect each other's privacy. During work is work, but when everyone is not working, they reserve rights to have their own privacy. Personally felt that we(Or anyone else) don't own any reason for not to work on certain days esp when we're only PT staffs. This is called mutual respect. There's a lot more I wanna say but it's rather inconvenient. So thanks a lot to those who're very curious to one's personal life. I'm not being rude here but these are personal opinions and honesty. Else, I'll let myself down. Thanks.

Bored.

Cannot really imagine that I'm actually playing with Fb's games. -_-"

FishVille

Admit it is cute okay? I feel so noob. -.-" I'm only level 2 and I have 10 over fishes I think. Sucks, I ain't any gamer anyway. -______-" This is how boredom kills and hurt my mentality. I don't game at all except for Diablo and Gunbound. BUT THAT WAS ALL THE PAST. I guess if I were to DOTA now, I'll kena pwned until like shit mannn. HAHA! Soon when I got my laptop, I'd dl DOTA and Gunbound. ^^

HEHE. HAPPY PLAYING! :D

HUHU.

Weets!

Got into NYP's nursing together with Emily! C: *happy*
I got into the course I want and the school I want. :D

Well, not gna find a new job anymore since school's gna reopen soon. At least I got into NYP and not bragging bout going to good course or school. I know my own limit. Crap.

I'm having very bad moodswing now. Weird enough I'm being happy in the day and moody in the night. It makes me feel guilty in the sense that baby's gna bear with my nonsensical crap. :( Seriously sorry baby. I'll try my best to control alright? Luv luv baby! ♥

Sorry people, make you guys worry bout me for not sharing any of my problems with y'all. It's just that I couldn't bring myself to confide in anyone. I'm facing a lot of crap now and coincidently I'm having moodswing which causes me to be thinking too much. I'll be fine, hopefully soon..

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CNY's round the corner and I have yet to get my shopping done. Don't even have the time to do it so. It's either work or no money. But I'm sure I'll be able to get shopping done by next week. V'day's arriving. Which means, I'll be celebrating it with baby in advance together with our belated 4 days 11th monthsary. (L)

Lalala.

night

had a bad time crying just a moment ago.

However I'm feeling quite okay now.
Just that I'm still down.
Baby, I need you...

Random

"If a philosopher could come up with many philosophies a day, then there would not be any crimes made anymore."


-Magdaline

"If you find yourself stuck or being chased out of the circle, just remember one fact that you would make yourself happier. You've got limbs for you to walk to another circle when you've drawn a new one and you've got a brain to think a solution for a bad situation. Use your limbs only when your brain can't produce any solution for you. Only this will make you happier.

-Magdaline

Tho I've secretly confided in someone but the emptiness is still within me. Again, I'm all alone. No words could really cheer me up. Words turn out to be bullshitting.

yadayada

Recently in bad mood and also I guess I'm falling sick soon.

Well, next week job hunting liao.
Or else I'll be pissed to death.

Pekchek.

Nevermind, on the brighter side, later in the noon will be going out for photoshoot with baby. Um, not wedding photo or what. It's just photography. Never had photoshoot with baby before and I realised that I'm the one shooting people all the time, also hardly the one being shot. So later on must take many many. C:

Longed to have this day arrive, thank God for giving me this opportunity. (:

"A tit for a tat. I'm pretty good at this. Feigning ignorance is my forte... Never try me."

sad. :(

Oh no. Im having bangs now. And it is soooo ugly. :C Really, I never had the intention to cut it at all. But the hairdresser didn't cut my fringe the way I want it to be and caused me to cut bangs instead.

I'm so fucking effin' sad now. :C
Nevermind, wait for it to be slightly longer then maybe it'll turn out better.

Ahhh. Nevermind too, find a way to make myself look prettier by having bangs. Puwer muee. *sigh*

unstablise

Opening tomorrow.
Job hunt soon.
Had a few in my mind.

Dragging Darly with me.. Mwahaha.

random

Life gives you many opportunities to chase after what you're chasing for. Life doesn't gives you any reason for backing out in a bad situation, because it gives you the opportunity to find a solution for yourself and the situation so that you'll grow up.

-Magdaline 

effin' bored.

I need a new hairstyle.

Gna get my hair done right before CNY.

Haven't got my clothes for CNY yet.

Everyone else does so alrdy.

-.-

My intention of new hairstyle will be hurtful to my hair.

And it'll affect my hair quality.

Heck.

I know how to tkcare of my own hair.

(:

I wanna trim the dead end off.

Dye my hair black.

And,

highlight it with blonde shade.

But baby said that the current colour suits me more.

However, I find it too common and it's sickening to see the black roots coming out.

It's been 2 months.

Or should I just trim my hair?

I need a need and nice hairstyle.

HOW?

And comes to clothes for CNY...

I just can't stop spending money.

And ending up at the end of the month I'm broke.

Things I cannot don't buy.

Heels

Bags

Tops

Bottoms

Makeups

FOOD

I really have no idea what to wear for CNY.

Any ideas?

My figure...

I'm 1.54m tall,

rather fair with a chiffon beigh hair. I have a pair

of biggy eyes and I'm quite plump.

My waist line is 28-29 cm. (FAT!!)

So am I consider petite?

or plumpy?

I NEED SOMETHING THAT SUITS MY DAMN HEIGHT!! :(

Shopping with me?

I want someone which I've not been shopping with and like taking pictures and go bonker with me.

Anyoneeeeeeeee?

:D:D

ceased.

I'm chilled now.
And I ain't angry anymore.

Midnight rain,
Baby just got home.

"i luv you from the bottom of my heart to the top of my soul. I really really cannot don't have you in my life.."
Yeah, me too. Luv you silly boy. ♥ C:

I had the sweetest time in the morning for opening. The silly boy left KFC breakfast on cashier's desk and a foolscape length long of letter inside the locker early in the morning like ard 8+. However, the tea was wasted due to the leakage that causes the cashier's desk menu to be soiled. I teared like a stupid girl(-.-) when I was reading the letter. In the evening he came over to pick me up and unfortunately my parents came first, so me and him head home by my dad's car and he had dinner with my family.

Everything was so bitter for the past 2 days and now it turned out sweet. Silly boy, I'm not angry with you anymore. You had a sleepless night, me too, just that I slept a lil only and you did not at all. I woke up in the middle of the night and saw the song you post up on fb. Again I was tearing like a stupid girl when I'm watching it. Yeah, I'm thinking of you, 我有你真好.

我会提醒自己，把这份爱收好。
(=
Y'know, even tho my day was badly ruined by some reasons, the thought and presence of you would just make me smile. You're the reason of my smile. I couldn't imagine that if one day something bad happen and you couldn't be the reason for my smile or in fact, I wouldn't even wanna imagine that. Cos we have a bright and sweet path to our future. *hugz*

Darling, promise me there'll be a no next time already? *gou gou shou* Our gou gou shou meant a lot to us. It's something we'll take it srsly because it's a promise we've made and we have to honour it. (=

It's late now, I should end off the post with a big hug to everyone.
*hugz*(!!)

flare up.

I'm just like a time bomb now. I could explode anytime from now.

And, it's just a sudden feeling that I'm all alone.

Beautiful Sunday

Long hair oh long hair~ Please come back to mummy! MUMMY MISSES YOU! :C

I'm patiently wait for my hair to be long right now.
But I'm in dilemma also.
Should I cut it again?
That means maintain short hair.
*hesitation*

Well, been drowning myself into K-pop videos and also variety show. We got married is superrrrr funny I swear. Especially GaIn and Jokwon. How lovely.

Yesterday had a slacking day with baby. Town to have lunch then to Jp. Got to Fairprice Xtra to buy food for dinner. ME COOK FOR BABY OKAY? :P And also with his help.

I told baby that the feeling is so nice when we're behaving like newly wed young couple. The moment is incredibly sweet and warm. HAHA. But again, we're still way too young to talk about marriage. :D

Gonna work later and shall head down earlier to accompany baby to have break.

Recently have not been hanging out much as I have to save money for my laptop and also recently I've been dreading to go to work. I also realise that I couldn't smile without baby's presence these few days. The whole world is like crashing against me and yet only the presence of him could brighten up my day. I cannot imagine life without him when he's at NS. Who'll be there to make my day?

笑一笑，没什么大不了！

:D

I wanna go Thailand this March, like real badly..

girls

Met up with Jenise, Huiqi and Peishan todaye.
Had rather a great time chatting with them and catching up. Ahyin and Kelly are not around. :C

Totally forgotten bout my troubles when I'm around with them. C:

Talked bout primary school life and how we got to know each other. We've passed PSLE, O's/N's together. Next up will be Diploma(s) and Degree. 6 years and going on friendship. (L) Those time with them are unforgettable and they marked our childhood memories and they're the one that know us inside out.

Night accompany Jen and Huiqi to PL to eat their dinner while I wait for baby to end work.

Welllllll... Tomorrow's gonna work. Somehow I dread working recently due to my frustrations. Seriously, apart from Topshop, Cotton On and Crocs, is there any other job recommendations?

I gettin' white hair soon.
:C
Being alone brings out negative thoughts and also, I feel myself struggling deep down in my mind.
Overall, I feel down.
Very down...
Until I can't find any word in the dictionary to describe. No matter what I'm saying out here isn't exactly how I feel. It's just that I couldn't find the word to describe.

Prolly the closest word that suits my feeling is down...

photos galore.

 Shopping with baby on the 2nd

 

Celebration with cliques

 

JIN & KENNETH.

LU BIAN YI KE~~~

RONG SHU XIANGGGG~~

 

Singer with his dancers. LOL.

When the cat attack the rat.

Cat = Huishan

Rat = Pikachu = Yonghong.

Strawberry New York cheesecake!

At home after the celebration...

Birthday pressy! ;D

Day itself with baby, on the 7th

Had NYNY with baby.

 

The Rootbeer float seems normal and taste normal. But the ice-cream is awesomezxzx!

Seafood platter.. For the king himself and his queen...

THE SMOKE SALMON IS HOLY! I SWEAR!

Just before the movie...

Cirque de Freak, The Vampire's Assistant

This earring is given by Aunty Doreen.

HANDMADE earring. She made 2 pairs for me!

(♥)

At home to cut cake.

TWEETY FROM BABY! :D

♥♥!

Imitating fail! :X

Strawberry shortcake! (L)(L)

PICTURES TELLS THE STORY! ;D

Firstly, I thank all who wished me on the 7th and those who have celebrated with me.
Disappointment was how I feel but it didn't really bother me that much.
I had a blast outing with baby and I feel luved at the very end.
COS I'M SURPRISED WITH A BIGGY TWEETY FROM BABY AND 14 VARIOUS SIZES OF CAREBEARS FROM SG!
Thanks Baby's sister, Amy and those who pei me to countdown my birthday on the 6th.
Thanks Baby for the wonderful day and night.
No matter what present I received, you're still my greatest present ever.
I luv you! (:

Secondly, I did not do well for my Os.
Eng - 4 (UNEXPECTEDLY GOOD)
Chi - 3
Maths - 6
Comb. Sci - 6
Comb. Humans - 8
Art - 7
R4 = 25 after CCA pts.
BAD RIGHT?
But I'm thinking optimistically cos even before that I've planned my path.
SOME MORE, I've promised to study hard in poly. :D
Thanks all for your concerns and support!
Me luv you guys especially Hwele! ♥!

Thirdly, I need to get a job.

Lastly, I'm rather vexed recently and couldn't really voice out.

"I used to be standing in the circle. But somehow, somewhat, someone pushes me out of the circle unknowingly or knowingly. I'm just thinking if I'm able to gain back my own stand in the circle or should I just find another circle to stand in?"

A thought rushes into my mind.

"I'm as strong as a titanium and nothing could actually bring me down..."

Is that a hoax to myself?
I find myself changing gradually.
I find myself avoiding facts and becoming a coward, not daring to voice out anything.

Social vex.

2009 is still a better year tho it had passed.
Despite O's. But at least I still have a fruitful year.

2010 is like shit.
I find myself drowning into negative thoughts.
I ain't having mood swing.
I find myself without any smile when I'm alone.
Or even when I achieve something which it is hard to.

I find myself to smile harder and there isn't much people can make me smile that genuinely apart from baby and some closeys.

I thought to myself...

"Where's me? Where's the used to be me? Where's the used to be bubbly me? Where's irritating me?"

After all, I'm just a silly girl having these silly words on this space.