THURSDAY!

Happy me today! =D BABY'S BOOKING OUT TODAY! (Y)(Y)(Y) Will be seeing him in less than 5 hours time. WOOTS!

But on the other hand I'm super pissed offffff. KNNPCB.

There's so many loud knockings on my ceiling since early in the morning. Ccb, it goes on and on without stopping. Fuck, it's getting onto my nerves and pissing me off. I cannot even watch my show in peace or listen to any music. SERIOUSLY, THESE PEOPLE OUGHT TO GET SOME SCOLDINGS... KNNNNNNNNNNN.

midnight thoughts

Should I celebrate my upcoming 18th(counting down is 3 and half months -..-) at club? YJ suggest to me that. I'm still considering stillll... HEH. I don't know why each time during this period of time I will start to think of how to celebrate my birthday. SO KIASU CAN??! -....-""

Any ideas? HEH HEH

it's okay

No point crying or brooding over what's already done. Tho I am still feeling down over my lousy results. Well, MAG!! BUCK UP THE NEXT SEM! =D

Awesome day

Awesome day with Yingxuan today. Pictures are still with her tho. ^^

wasdwasd

In life, people always replaced the word 'regret' with a phrase call 'it was a mistake'.

when I close my eyes, I think of you

Today will be the second Friday that I'm spending alone while everyone is out there having fun. I feel so far away from him despite the constant phone calls that we had almost every night. I can feel his presence but I can't feel his touch. It's been 12 days without him with me.

Each night it took me quite some time to fall asleep. I'd be staring at the ceiling thinking of him and hoping that time will pass, quickly. Tho everyday is moving very fast, but without him with me, everything seem so slow. I'm missing him, as much as I missed the shooting star and hoping the next one to come real quick.

Coping at home for the past few days is really a boredom to me. However it makes me reflect efficiently. Soon, very soon I'll be able to see him. Just 5 more days. =)

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I feel down and empty for no apparent reason just now. However, feeling so much better now. =)

Friday, is really suckish to me. Then, it'll be a looking forward day for me. Cos I'll be looking forward to his book out every week. =)

My baby is becoming a man. Aigo. LOL.
xoxo

webcam without you in it

Been webcamming and blasting songs in the room for the past 15 mins. KAN NIN NA is what I feel like saying. Don't bother to ask why, fuck my life. I only know that don't fucking talk to some people that will fuck you back with thousands of words and make the whole problem seems like your fucking fault. No fucking logic in your brain then please don't fuck back so loudly. KNN.

Okay, enough of rantings.

I had sucha b0riinqq dayy at h0mee nehhszx. =( em0 sadd sadd. haiishzxzx.
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Kiam pa by using twits. =/ Well, couldn't believe it with my own eyes until now, there's people still using twit while chatting, fb-ing or blogging. (TWIT AS IN TWIITSZX NOT TWITTER FYI~) Actually a bit irritated. I wonder since when Sg's educators teach their students to use twit instead of proper English. (Okay lah, I admit I used it before cos it was trend mahzxzx. =D) Sigh, twits are so lame. -_-

ahhh, enough of it. too lazy to continue blogging alrdy. gotta go naozxz! Ciiiiiiiiaozx! =D


p.s/ One more week to be back into baby's arms!

what should I blog about?

Totally had no idea what to blog about apart from what I'm doing recently. Dead boring way of living my own life.

Re-watching Goong again.

byebye.

happiest

Today I had the longest phone call with Baby♥. Heeeh!

"... baby, I am very fortunate to have you to support me through my hard time and...., Even thought NS have separate us from distance, but once everything is over, we are actually more close to each other than before...."

Quoted some only. Well, I teared while reading his long text to me. I've never felt so luved in my whole life time before. I feel that I'm the happiest girl ever. And I don't know what else to say. Likewise baby say, tho NS separates us. But this is the period of time for us to grow up while maintaining our r/s. I'm sure we're able to stabilize our r/s and move on. =) NS only mahhhhzxzx. HEHEHE. So... There's nothing else I could say. Way too speechless for it. HOPE BABY WILL SEE THIS WHEN HE BOOK OUT! =D ♥

Cherish your partner a lot and mean it when you said something to him/her.

17th Sept, TGIF

Was looking thru at those photos taken during the last day at SJH. It was awesome and fab. Everyone enjoy that day a lot. =) Anyway, apologies to all. Cos it was a late uploading of photos at Fb. Cos there are way tooooo many photos. =/ However, I'm left with tagging only.. 477 photos. Goodness gracious. T.T I'll try my best to get it done by today!

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Usually on Fridays at this point of time I would be either playing mahjong with my 'ka'(s) or will be out there hanging out with baby♥. But today seems so quiet for me. Coping up in my little crib and stomach aching away. -..- Guess I'm experiencing constipation.(?)

Well, in 13 days time I'll be with baby♥! Hehehehe.

Friday for this week and next week, home. -...-"

I just haven't map out my planning for next week. Blaaaa. OH YA, I've learn crocheting today on my own but it seems to be a failure. Cos the sole of the shoe became a C shape instead. HEH HEH. =D

Hongkong trip shall postpone to next year. =( Sad thing, cos there ain't anybody going. Except for B1 and I. I wanna get my Longchamp cosmos and HP bagggg. T^T

Life sucks when you have no money. =(

midnight sweat

I never thought I would experienced a relapse last night. Seriously I thought I was going to die. Luckily big bro is there to help me. I kept perspiring and couldn't take any deep breath.

I'm fine now, fortunately. Thank God.

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'这一路
有时晴
有时雨
都没有关系
我们的真心超过钻石对爱的定义'

小夫妻 by 欧得洋

I was thinking bout those happy times we had. Smiling to it stupidly.
=)

22 days to our 19th month! =D ♥!!

hopefully

Hopefully I'll be fine now. No more of breaking downs.

=)

day 3

day 3, 15 more days to go.

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I've never been sooo alone before. Been tearing for 2 days already, hopefully today I won't. Well, last night break down very badly suddenly. Thank you to Steph for your hug, Karen for tissue, Yijie, Wanjin and Kimleong for being there for me last night. I can't help it but break down. Probably I'll be fine today, no guarantee. I just feel like isolating myself in my room for as long as I can. Even if I go out, so what? At the end of the day I'll have to get back home on my own and alone without baby. ='( Mummy don't feel safe for me cos baby's not with me. She rang me up last night and tell me not to go back so late cos I'm alone.

I can't help but wanting to sleep to prevent myself from tearing again.

Sigh, seriously I'm missing baby very very very very badly. Fuck my life. There I go tearing again.

I wish I'll have you with me now, but there's nothing I could do...

=(

i miss you

I toss and turn in bed
Can't get you out of my head
Even though you're so far away
I need you here with me
Oh boy, why can't you see
That I can't live without your love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
Well I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

Counting every day that goes by
And the tears that I cry
You don't wanna love me no more
Wish that you could hold me tonight
I'm hurting inside

So I can make you see
That you belong with me
For me there is no other love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

credits: x

without you

Thought I wouldn't be a cry baby ystd. Cos when baby and I apart, I didn't cry. However the moment I got home, I start to break down like nobody cares.

Nap without him. When he always napped with me. Couldn't get to sleep.
Got home without him. When he always lock the door whenever we got home.
Using the laptop without him. When he would always be playing his PSP.
Play monopoly deal without him. When he would always fall into my tricks.
Slept at night without him. When he would always tuck me in, kiss me goodnight and hug me to sleep.
Home alone without him. When he would always keep me company.
Thunders without him. When he would always cover my ears with his hands and pull me close to him.

That silly guy. Lights off still call me. Hear his voice for a minute and hang off. Feeling 100% relieve after that. Still I couldn't get to sleep. Thinking if he's the same as me. Staring at the ceiling..

Today woke up at 5.30, text him for awhile then got back to sleep. Gna wait for his text every single moment. End up I became so sensitive to phone's vibration.

Baby I luv you! ♥
16 more days to go!

xoxo

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2 more days to baby's enlistment day.

It is the first time in my whole life facing this kind of situation whereby I gotta part with my partner for a period of time (2 weeks of confinement). Accepting it pretty well. It's not like he's going to any war or overseas training. I'll get to see him after 2 weeks. Most importantly is that he gotta take care of himself and his cellphone (main source of contacting). Least I've planned my days during those 2 weeks while he's inside camp. Well, not any biggy, national service only. ♥♥

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It's been a while since I had lengthy post. All thanks to attachment and examinations. But anyway, everything is over nao. All I have to do is to concentrate on blogging and continue with what I've planned for my days while baby is inside camp.

Well, skip bout baby's enlistment and all my nagging. Recent Monday head down to NHC's HR office to get my contract sign. Nao I'm officially a sponsored student. Nothing to be proud of but I'm just trying to make my lengthy post a successful one.

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Fuck my lifeeeeee. I'm lazy to continue my lengthy post.
bye all -.-

you can be happy and it depends on how you see life.

NS gna take baby away from me in a week's time.
I won't cry. Cry for what?! hahah.

cute =)

ADMIT IT! It's cute okay. mytian. =D